-bahz- Blogging is so dead... Busy working as of now, but still, my schedule at work fits into training nicely.

Working for over a week @ HRC already. Picked things up real fast. Took orders, keyed in, served, cleared and set tables on my own. Less the 1 mistake for clearing away the food the customer wanted to take-away instead, all was well... =X

Following quite a number senior staffs around, learning the ropes. Lilith even commented I learnt very fast for a newbie in this line, considering I was doing sales previously, and have no experience in the F&B service line. But well, Cynthia and Fairus still think I'm not up to the job of holding a station... =\ Rama was my trainer today, he asked me if I'm confident of taking up a station on my own. Sure I am! But roster is out for tomorrow, still attached to a trainer for tomorrow... -bahz-

I want my bloody tips!!! Grrrrr... Haven't gotten any for the past 2-3days... No $$$!!! =(

Haven't been updating this blog of mine. I'm totally lost at what I'm doing. I see no motivation in doing anything... My purpose is gone... Totally gone... Not to mention my heart got shattered into a million pieces, where it was just cracks before...

Exams come and go... And it's already time for my last paper in a couple of hours from now... I can't seem to focus and stuff whatever infomations into my head. But well, I'm expecting to retake the module anyway...

Life just sucks... But retail therapy is good. Got a deal for Hayes' El Calmino disc brakes for $500 flat. Posted my XT 4pods out for sale, and it was sold within 24hrs of posting. Sold it for $300, so I topped up another $200 for the El Calmino... The brakes were damn powerful, with the brake piston almost as big as half of my thumb. That explains the high braking power and modulations... I'm going to be so poor soon. Going to work my ass off to repay my debts.

Went for ride with the team this morning for the Japanese Surrender 60th Anniversary. Had fun and laughter throughout the ride, and also quite a scare while coming down from Labrador Park. Rear wheel lockup = Skidding all around. Front wheel lockup = Twitching of the front like nobody's business. And so happen I was going downhill and was trying to break in my pads, but lockup the wheel instead. So I had to play balancing on the bike, the front twitch to the left, I pull up and twitch it the other way, and it twitches to the right and I pull up and twitch it the other way. Almost scare me out of my daylights! Pro-handling = no falls and quick reactions.

The day was going fine, the ride, the lunch, the company... Until a SMS came in in the afternoon... =(

This whole week is shit for me. All the wrongs things just chose to come altogther at the wrong time... Almost have an emotional breakdown... Life have been very sucky... Life really sucks...

It just hit upon me real hard on one faithful night. I couldn't be with you, but I have to preach what I said.

Quote from unknownz, "if you love her, set her free. if she comes back, she's yours. if not, love was never meant to be..."

It has brought me to tears, to read upon the mails and messages exchanged, days after days, nights after nights...

But still, life have to go on. The world is still spinning, she's still leading her own life without me being a major part of it. I'm thankful for all the friends around me, providing me with emotional support all this while.

Though I can never be the somebody in your heart, but I hope that I could, at least be the somebody that you can share your problems with... Afterall, I'm still your bestie and you're mine too...

It takes great pain to pen this all out, with tears flowing freely, even at this moment right now...

But I'll be strong, stand tall and fight for my dreams and make you proud of me...

But I still have something to say to you no matter what... I love you.