it's 4 in the morning on new year's eve..

been busy at work after xmas.. started work @ singpost already.. have been on OT for 2 days consecutively.. guess it will be pretty common for the days onwards @ singpost..

2007 is ending, and it's time to set some new resolutions for 2008.

1st up, trip to taiwan. working now, stable income.. hopefully i'll get to travel there in 2008.
2nd, work hard and strive for the best at work.
3rd, save up! it's time to see some figures in my bank account already..
4th, class 3 and 2A. by end of the year and june respectively..
5th, currently unable to disclose.. HAHAH!

it has set me thinking about something.. yes, it's about you again.. do i still have feelings for you all these while? i think i have, but it's just staying dormant in my heart.. it's been a good 3+years already.. i'm sure you know how i feel towards you, yet it's weird that you will come towards me and talk about relationship problems, and vice versa..

i miss you, and i really do. how i wish i could turn back the time and start all over again.. i haven't gone out with you for over 6months! i can't even the exact date we went out with each other.. i could only remember it faintly that we went to your family's yong tau hoo shop somewhere near chinatown.. how time flies..

i know people say that seeing the one you love is happy, you ought to be happy for them too. but are you? how am i going to feel happy for you when you aren't really that happy? =(

i miss you babe..

this post is for you.. if you got update yourself at my blog that is..

it's sad to hear that you are quarreling with your other half for such a long time.. no couple will actually quarrel for long, though it's on and off.. but still..

at the end of the day, are you happy in this relationship? no doubt that you love him her, but are you happy? i don't think so..

what's the rational of being in a relationship, but you are not happy with each other? yes, no doubt there might be love flying around, but where is the happiness? you are suppose to share your joy and sorrows with each other. but it seems like there's only agony.

let me give you a simple equation to see things more clearly..

love + happiness = 1 + 1 = in a relationship

if there is love, but no happiness, the 1 + 1 equation wouldn't be true already.. it will become 1 + 0.

and you know that 1 + 0 ≠ in a relationship. only 1 + 1 = in a relationship.

if either 1 of the 2 crucial elements is missing from the equation, how to sustain it? it will just lead to more and more quarrels..

and ultimately at the end of the day, would you rather love someone, or to be loved by someone?

you have the choice to love anyone on this earth, but there's only some whom will love you..

no doubt it's a difficult choice to make, but sometimes it's better to let go rather than to hang on..

be a man woman, make the right decision.. and perhaps, it's time to change your sexuality back to what it originally used to be..

text me when you see..

busy busy day today..

went for interview AGAIN. confirmed the job at singapore post already.. logistics line.. pay isn't that fantastic, but the perks and welfare are not bad. so basing on that, and of course without the need to burn my weekends and public holidays, i'm glad to say i'm part of singpost now.

went for medical checkup in the afternoon, signed the contract and went to downtown for shopping!

yes yes, xmas is coming. so being a good friend, bought some xmas presents. caring and sharing the xmas spirit. not expecting much in return though. just a kind gesture from me. and of course it would be good if there's a reciprocate action from the receiving party. =) blew quite a substantial amount though, and not yet finish buying! DIE!

heading down to town to meet phil and gf. haven't seen him around for quite some time, so yeap. caught up with each other, walked around the whole orchard. burning my heel and calves. DAMN THOSE SHOES! so bloody stiff!!!

haven't been spending time in town for such long period. 5+ hrs to be exact..

tomorrow's gonna be another long day ahead. and as always, more money to be spent. -.-|||

but hey! it's a whole different feeling knowing that you got the power to spend, and still have excess. the feeling is OH SO SHIOK!! hahaha...

aites aites, time to go.. damn tired.. not enough sleep lately..

too bad.. didn't get the job as assistant QA engineer. reason being, qualifications not there. ARGH! now really regret not studying hard back in poly to get that piece of diploma certificate.

but still, i got the job as operations officer to fall back on. and yes, confirm the offer with them already. will be signing the papers next wednesday. tentatively starting work on 2nd jan 2008.

just hope that everything will be smooth sailing now on.. save up, and go back to school in 2009, and MAKE SURE GET THE DAMN BLOODY DIPLOMA!

anymore stupid mistakes and i'm screwed big time. why so? cause i'm getting older and older! argh~

tomorrow's the big day! interview for assistant QA engineer!

WOOHOO!

i wonder how it will go.. will they offer me the job on the spot? will they offer me the expected pay that i want? will they give me prospects to grow and grow?

so many wonders..

and i wonder will i get the job anot.. hmmmm..

this is serious shit. maybe tomorrow morning i should go to waterloo guan yi temple and pray pray. pray for good luck for the interview.. hee..

aite aite, time to hit the sack and wish me luck!

went for interview @ cisco earlier. didn't want to go actually, but since they are so insistent on me going down for an interview, so rescheduled it to the afternoon instead.

got the confirmation few hours after the interview. pretty fast response. they are offering me 1.4k. shift job = weekends burnt. public holidays ALSO BURNT! that kinda sucks. let's see how their shift works..

1st shift: 0700-1500hrs
2nd shift: 1500-2200hrs
3rd shift: 2200-0700hrs

the team will rotate around the shifts, 2 x 1st shift and 2 x 3rd shifts, 1 day off, 2 x 3rd shift, 1 day off. and the whole rotation repeats itself again and again and again and again.

1 week of training, 1 week of on-job-training, and i'm on my own to man the whole system. =X screw up means that's it.

i told them i will give them an answer by monday afternoon. if i take up the offer, means no more mambo nights! =( cause wed night is stuck in office! hopefully the assistant QA engineer job will give me a better offer. afterall, i have some background in that sector back in poly.

prospects are also better as an assistant QA engineer. maybe it might ignite back my passion for engineering? nobody knows.. all i know now is that on monday, i have to change my explanation for the dropout from poly!

please please please give me a better offer of 1.5k!!!

alrite.. 2 job call ups this morning.. 1 as a Quality Assurance assistant with a Japanese company, another as an Operation Officer in Cisco..

the QA job sounds not bad, hopefully i get the job.. starting pay is about 1.5k, with increment after confirmation.

OO at Cisco, just trying my luck actually. just in case really cannot find a job, then take it as a fall back job. it's so near my place, so be it.

oh yeap, SIM got back to me with regards to the appeal. as expected, SIM is so full of shit and i totally expected that kinda bullshit reply from them. biz comm appeal overturned, reasons not stated. biz maths appeal also overturned, reasons not stated as well.

biz maths, i'm sure that i submitted my assignment and yet i'm awarded an F for it. what's the stupid use of me going for the papers when they are out to get me. kill my braincells for nothing. i request to view my scripts, they declined my request. so you tell me either the management is seriously FUCKED UP or NOT?

collect money is SO EFFICIENT, but ask them to do appeal and investigate, take so bloody long time.. see manager must make appointment. MADNESS!!! best part, the manager can yak on the intercom with me for good 10mins when she told me she got a meeting to rush to. can spare 10mins talking over the intercom, but cannot spare 5mins to see me in person. WELL DONE! dun even know how to prioritise properly, still need a STUDENT to teach a MANAGER! -faint-

I'M SO FUCKING DISAPPOINTED WITH SIM LA! PAY SO MUCH YET GOT THIS KIND OF SHIT.. CANNOT MAKE IT MAN!!!!!

alrite, went for interview. wait for many many hours, but screwed it up.

anxiety + temperature drop = mind totally blank

so yup, waited for the interview for so long, just for 5mins.. abit stupid right? hahaha.. but never mind, try harder next time.

so now, all i can hope is that i get the job at the airport.. at least better than nothing. =X though it will be different from what i am used to, but at the very least, there's $$$ coming in..